Fate? [PART 2]

After that brief moment of directing Amy to the office, Alex had to bid her goodbye. His heart sank as he realized he may never have the chance to talk to her any more but what was he to do? He was, by nature, a quiet person who could never converse well with girls, unlike his friends who could instantly turn on their charms to make girls laugh. Alex sighed and went on with his way, physically getting away from Amy but never straying far from her mentally.

   Two days later, Alex had to stay back at the campus while waiting for his sister to finish watching a movie with her friends so he could play his role as a responsible driver for her. He figured he might as well go to the library to grab some books for his upcoming project as he knew the pile of projects would eventually start stacking up once classes have formally started. Alex strolled down the aisle, occasionally stopping to flip through several books before adding them to the small mountain of books in his arms. Suddenly, he had a tingly sort of feeling behind his neck, as if his body was nudging his head upwards. He glanced up, only to see Amy standing just a stone's throw away from him. Without thinking, Alex spun around the corner of the bookshelf at lightning speed, in a valiant attempt to disappear from her line of sight before she spotted him. 

   Alex caught his breath as he slowly calmed down. His face broke out into a huge grin he could not suppress as he soared to cloud nine. If she was here, in the library, it meant that she was one of the students in his university! It also meant that he could see her more often although she was probably one of the freshmen. Last time he saw her, he could not screw up the courage to start a proper conversation with her, but Alex resolved to man up at all costs and just talk to her. Even if he got firmly rejected, at least he would know that he would not regret missing this chance in the future. And with that, he turned back to where Amy was standing.. Only to find her spot empty.

   Dejected, Alex retraced his path back to where he was hiding earlier. As he was turning the corner, Alex crashed into someone mid walk. His books flew into the air in a slow motion arch as he registered the person he walked into. It was Amy. Never in his wildest dreams would Alex think this act of fate would happen. He knew his chance came.. and this time, he won't let it escape him again.

The Beginning. [PART 1]

2018

ALEX

What did you say? How it all started? Well, let’s rewind to a few years before this blog post, back when I was merely 20 years of age, and when I first met the love of my life.

2010

ALEX

I’m bored out of my life! What made me think of coming to campus when I didn’t even have classes today? I sigh to myself, lunch with my friends just isn’t a good enough reason for me to come out of my cosy bed. I barely had enough sleep as it is because of my preparations for an upcoming presentation; what made me think that a break from the computer would make my day any better?  I am just wandering through the campus with my friends, a bunch of guys who badly needed haircuts, when I see HER. I stop abruptly in my tracks, ignoring the startled cries of my friends who crash behind my back. Why haven’t I noticed her before? Or perhaps she is a freshman who just signed up for one of the courses in my university? It is highly possible that with my kind of luck, she might just be a random stranger passing by to enquire about something from the office. I sigh, hating that I was already having these pessimistic thoughts before I even got the chance to stand near her, much less talk to her. Suddenly, she looks up from the brochure she was reading, seemingly able to sense the piercing stare I am giving her. I couldn’t avert my eyes fast enough, and our eyes meet for a brief second. I swear, in that short moment, it felt like the clock stopped ticking and everyone stopped moving. Somehow, I know. That she is the one I am going to marry.

AMY

Finally! It’s my first day as a university student and I am already loving it. The campus is filled with other students milling about, and seniors handing out brochures to join their clubs, each claiming to be the best club on campus. I look around with a permanent satisfied smile pasted on my face before starting a slow walk towards the office. I’m trying so hard to decipher the map of the campus on the brochure, but my sense of direction is so bad that I’m making a really bad job out of it. Hmm, let’s see. Around the corner of the pavilion should be the main building, where there are two lion statues as landmarks. I look up, but instead of seeing two lions, I see a guy, a senior, maybe, looking at me. I decide to ask him for directions, since we have already caught the opponents’ attention anyway. 

Dreamy life

Is life all a dream?
Have you ever wondered what would happen after death? Would we be presented to God and be judged whether to be sent to Heaven or Hell? Or would we just wake up to find out that it was all just a dream? For all we know, our lives may very well be exactly like in the movies. We could be observed by other beings, our every action closely monitored by watchful eyes. But that doesn't really matter to me, because I care more about the present, the now that we're living in. As the saying goes, yesterday was past, but today is the present. Because today is a gift, for us to celebrate another day of being in the presence of our loved ones. If life was truly a dream, I am fully committed to living that dream so when I wake up, I could say, "Aah, what a nice dream.", instead of "Oh my goodness, what a horrible nightmare!". This leads to another theoretical question. Would you rather be in the know and be unhappy or be like a fool, but a happy fool? Being the fool that I am, I would choose the latter because to me, happiness just about trumps everything else. So who cares if what we're living now is just a tiny fragment of a dream? I'd much rather be happy without a care in the world than anything else.

Alive and living

What is the difference between living and being alive?
For me, there is a huge, distinct difference that differentiates those two simple phrases. Being alive, for one, could mean that the person could be living very much like a dead person would have, just that their hearts are beating well and strong. Truly living is what I believe everyone in this crazy world we're living in now wants to achieve. It isn't as easy to actually live life to its fullest when all we're doing is just having meaningless talks. In fact, I wouldn't be able to say that I'm truly living right now, but I'm breathing and carrying out my daily lifestyles just like you all do. Is living life all about achieving your life goals? I don't even know what my proper life goals are, apart from things that humour me and passing exams. But that is exactly why we are all still alive. Because that is how we are going to work and strive towards TRULY living our lives.

Happiness is the mission that I am certain everyone is aiming to accomplish, so I'll start living my life by setting that as my goal. School life really helped me a lot in that aspect, because my friends, buddies and baes (that's not a proper word, sorry) make learning so much more fun. There is not a day that passes by without the sound of laughter ringing in my ears. The hustle and bustle of school life has become my starting point to gaining happiness, because I have complete faith in the sentence, we're happy because we laugh, and not laugh because we're happy. If it doesn't make sense to you, read that sentence over and over again till you get it. Because that's when you'll finally start living life.

We shouldn't be concentrated on just being alive, because that's just being lazy to break out of your comfort zone. Living is all about being uncomfortable, because everyday brings a different surprise, various changes that may bring sadness but also pleasure to you. Those people being alive are too busy breathing to look out for these menial things that sums up to only one answer. Life.